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In Grief: When A Tragic Accident Takes A Mother's Life
A reader writes: I'm 25 years old, and I lost my mother in a surprising, tragic accident about 1 week ago. I was devastated for days, but now I don't feel much of anything... I feel saddened and confused, and I don't really know what to do... nothing feels important - but it is as if I should be feeling much worse, I don't know how to put it any better than that. The funeral was yesterday, and almost 500 people showed up to say goodbye (people were standing in the hallway doors looking it was so full), which was pretty touching considering my mom hardly ever left the house (except for work and dog walking), but it was a lovely thing.
I'm afraid I don't really know what I'm asking for here. My mom and I were incredibly close, she was my best friend and I saw her at least once a week, but it seems as if I can hardly remember her, I don't know if that is just an aspect of shock or not and if I look at pictures of her, I feel a twinge of sadness that seems to be immediately, subconsciously repressed and I then have trouble looking at the picture.
I'm afraid I don't really know what I'm asking for here. My mom and I were incredibly close, she was my best friend and I saw her at least once a week, but it seems as if I can hardly remember her, I don't know if that is just an aspect of shock or not and if I look at pictures of her, I feel a twinge of sadness that seems to be immediately, subconsciously repressed and I then have trouble looking at the picture.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated, thanks for taking the time to read my long, rambling post. Please respond, I feel as if I desperately need some help/advice. I should mention that I have no father (never knew him) and I am not terribly close with my step-father, so I feel kind of orphaned, perhaps that is contributing to my confusion...
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